I was asked to give a speech and this is what I wanted to say.

Today, my colleagues of AUEI Group held  surprise party for the birthday peeps and I was the one who joined the conspiracy too as I am not the birthday girl. Mine is in May :)

So, we should be in UNITY for lunch and I was lil bit late getting in there. So when I got in there and didn't notice what was on the whiteboard.
But then, someone asked me to read what was on the whiteboard and so yeah.

'AUEI GROUP, JAMUAN BULANAN & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO - Nik, Hah, A. Duan + Congratulation Nurul - SPM 9A'

and I was jaw-dropped. Didn't expect that it was also a surprise for me. There's only one thing I could say,

I am happy. Totally happy.

and then, they suddenly asked those birthday peeps to give some speech. and I was like kinda relieved as I thought I didn't have to do so but then  I was the one who kick the party started.

They asked me to give a speech and I was so surprised and that wasn't good for me. because when I am surprised and being too happy, I would be at loss of words.

'Thank you. hehehe Thank you.'

I said that. Nothing much but thanking them, not even giving salam -,-

But, if they could and ever find this. This is what I really want to say today, if my tongue wasn't frozen.

Dear Colleagues,
Assalamualaikum wbt. I wanna thank all of you guys for this surprise.  Even though I've been here just for a few months. These things are very nice and thank you so much. It feels great to learn something I'd never known before and being around all of you, it feels like family. I am grateful enough and thank you so much :)


This is what I wanted to say.

A quest for self.

It is already 11th February of 2014. Yet so fast. I just realized that January had just passed about almost two weeks. Yet so fast, I didn't even realize it.

To say that I am busy is just unfair and totally wrong.

wrong.

Because I was not that busy. still am not. So, it is not a valid reason for me to use.

Being in the second week of February makes me to stop for a while and look back on what I have done for the whole month of January. Was January a month worth to be remembered or I would be like slamming off the door hard because of my regrets?

sort of... the second answer. for me.

I am getting older by every second and that aging process happens without me noticing. I didn't notice it because I was so into the fun around me. Having the thoughts of I am still young, long way to go, etc etc just makes me to doze off in the nightmares of life.

I am somewhat and somehow once again stuck in this situation of me demanding for answers.
I like it how I am stuck like this cus it makes me think about my whole life that I had spent. It takes me to sit down for a while and have flashbacks.
I analyse those days, what I achieved, what shouldn't I have done, what shouldn't I miss and lots of questions pop out.

and for people like me, that always be a such forgetful person, I noticed one thing. This thing seems like unimportant but actually it plays a big role in our life for every second of it.

Being thankful.

I admit that I am NOT being thankful for every second in life that I had. You just being so thankful when something crossed your mind and you go like 'Oh thank God!' 'Alhamdulillah!!' 'Thank you so much Allah for this and that and these....'

I wonder why we get to say these words of thankfulness to Allah only when we notice the gift, the ni'mat that appears in our sight? Why about other small things? Are we not being thankful of that small things?

I am pretty confused with myself. During those times of me having struggles, I barely hardly realized that it was actually a gift from Allah which apparently happens to bring me closer to Him. and why I couldn't even say Alhamdulillah, Thank You Allah for this... because in my opinion, struggles are not to tie us to the ground, hold us from rising up from failures etc but it is to repair, to fix the broken relationship between us and Allah.

because we wronged Allah for so many times in a day but we never be the first to fix everything. He is the one that opens the door of repentance for us, still giving us the over-flooding ni'mat, the one that would forgive us for all the time.

This song exactly describes how I felt.




Allah never forget His servants, so we don't have the rights to forget Him even for a breath.

Credits : Umar Mita

infinity and....?

I was in the office and it was 10 a.m. I realized that it is 15 of January already. A month had passed, Alhamdulillah.


So back then on 15th December 2013, I started working at this one company. Well, just accidentally got the job. So much alhamdulillah, I couldn't even express my feelings when I got the job. Happy, scared, shocked etc etc all mixed up haha

I am not going to rant about work and stuff because the whole one month, I had have learnt so much, beyond what I expected. Not only in context of work field but to be honest I learnt how to deal with tough situations with thousand types of attitudes and everyday, I got a lesson to remembered and to learn.

In the office, I learned how those senior staffs communicate with clients and directors. They are professional but sometimes we just slipped away from the track and things are ruined. But,seeing in some situations in working field, there is a few things shouldn't happen as we are in a muslim community.

Based on my observation. I travel a lot, I observe and I learn.
and I can summarize it in one formula(?)

well, mostly in maths we learn that infinity, even when divided by smaller number all that we will get is infinity. But when smaller number is divided by infinity, we will get zero.

Infinity here represents as Allah swt.
Smaller numbers are the dunya, the problems, the loves, the hatred, the wealth and all.

we muslims claim that Allah is our priority but most of the times, I see people dropping it by the roadside. They are slowly picking up smaller things of the dunya and put it above Allah. We might be thinking that we get to solve all our problems and we can stay cool for the next hours and days. But, that what we think. Does it really end like what we think?

It is not.

Eh, why?

Because you had just placed Allah below everything that should never be placed there. In everything, we should remember that Allah is our number one, first and foremost priority not other stuff. When we place Allah at the right place, inshaAllah, all those things that keep on burdening us will be solved.

Buzz Lightyear always says this, 'To the infinity and beyond!'

What if, 'For the Infinity(Allah swt) and beyond!

For the sake of Allah, and everything beyond what we expected will turn to us :)

Credits to: Umar Mita